Monday, October 6, 2008

One More Coming in May!!

I'm PREGNANT!!!  I just can't contain how excited I am about being pregnant.  It has been a harder journey than I thought it would be to have a second baby, but it was worth it.  About 4 months ago I miscarried and that was really hard.  I tried to remind myself that God was in control, but I found myself mad.  I wanted it so badly, so why couldn't it be as easy as Levi?   My Father and family got me through and I was constantly seeing God in everything that was happening.  He stripped me of this idea of control that I had.  I for some reason thought that I was in control of what was happening.  I kept saying to myself, "I should have taken it more easy, I shouldn't have taken that spinning class."  I blamed myself.  I know now that it wasn't anything I did or could have done.  This whole process really has taught me a lot.  I know that God is fully in control and that His plans for me are perfect.  His timing is perfect.  I just hope that I can always keep this insight into everything that will occur in this life.  I am by no means "out of the woods", if you will, but I am believing God is doing something miraculous in me.

All that to say, Levi will be a big brother some time in May.  I am only 8 weeks, and so far everything looks good.  I find no reason not to tell, because I am an open book.  No reason to be closed.  No matter what happens, I am thankful.