All that to say, Levi will be a big brother some time in May. I am only 8 weeks, and so far everything looks good. I find no reason not to tell, because I am an open book. No reason to be closed. No matter what happens, I am thankful.
Monday, October 6, 2008
One More Coming in May!!
I'm PREGNANT!!! I just can't contain how excited I am about being pregnant. It has been a harder journey than I thought it would be to have a second baby, but it was worth it. About 4 months ago I miscarried and that was really hard. I tried to remind myself that God was in control, but I found myself mad. I wanted it so badly, so why couldn't it be as easy as Levi? My Father and family got me through and I was constantly seeing God in everything that was happening. He stripped me of this idea of control that I had. I for some reason thought that I was in control of what was happening. I kept saying to myself, "I should have taken it more easy, I shouldn't have taken that spinning class." I blamed myself. I know now that it wasn't anything I did or could have done. This whole process really has taught me a lot. I know that God is fully in control and that His plans for me are perfect. His timing is perfect. I just hope that I can always keep this insight into everything that will occur in this life. I am by no means "out of the woods", if you will, but I am believing God is doing something miraculous in me.